Lord Feverstone's Commentary

Musings of a Christian monarchist on life, government, society, theology, etc.

Monday, August 14, 2006

On the Futility of Life

Some undoubtedly think someone as young as I am should brimming with hope and optimism. Alas, I possess neither.

In my years, I notice people engaging in the same routine every day. Every year of their lives just leaves them older with the few constants being pain, sorrow, work, taxes and bills. Sound appealing? I thought not. What makes it better to live such a life than to live no life at all?

The successful and the unsuccessful perish. The rich and the poor perish. The healthy and the sick perish. The strong and the weak perish. If one gains the whole world, what profit will it be to him in death? If one accumulates innumerable possessions, what profit will they be to him in death? If one acquires great strength, what profit will it be to him in death?

To what end do I toil and endure? Why do I rise in the morning? What makes the misery worthwhile?

What has my life thus far amounted to? Very, very little. I behold myself in the mirror and state, "So this is what I have become." I hate seeing former teachers or schoolmates when I am on the job...or anywhere for that matter, since they unwittingly remind me of my failure; with all of the potential people say they see in me and my distinguished academic career, I am ashamed to be where I am. Truly, I could have become more than what I am today, and this knowledge torments me. I could have had a family of my own by now, a house and decently compensating employment. But what am I now? A bachelor who has never dated working a job where the pay and the frustration prove inversely proportional in a decidedly negative fashion. I no longer have the charisma I once had in public speaking, which I discovered after taking a required speech course at my new school after the fateful "Spring Break" of 2001; I found watching the video of my speeches to be deeply disappointing.

I start my last class on the 23rd of this month, but I wish it was over now. I hoped in the past if I was still in school at this time of life, I would be on my way to a Ph.D., not a bloody Bachelor's degree. The degree will prove to be more highly esteemed by other people, particularly employers, than myself; it is just an overrated, expensive piece of paper to me. I can and do learn just fine outside the confines of a university campus, which by no means has a monopoly on knowledge.

What do I have which makes my presence in this world meaningful? In my honest opinion, I have only one asset, my mind. Are there greater minds out there? Of course there are, so what I have to offer is hardly much; it is not as if I have unlocked the secrets of the universe and shared them. My outlook on life is obviously not rosy, so I do not exactly give off an infectious zest for life. I have provided some modest amounts of encouragement and levity to others occasionally, but these could be performed with greater frequency and efficacy by others.

Will my outlook on life ever improve? Perhaps, but it will never happen sans adequate justification.

Will life ever be more than an exercise in futility? If so, when? I long to live, not merely exist.

26 Comments:

Blogger NYMOM said...

"Will my outlook on life ever improve."

If you continue hanging around Stand Your Ground and other nests of subversion and malcontents, I can tell you right now, no it will never improve.

I mean look at the portraits of the most successful men in the world...Bill Gates...now that guy must of been a nerd in school, YET he's a multi-billionaire today...

Walt Disney, the man was not only a high school dropout, but he was dishonorably discharged from the army...YET again, very successful.

With a BA in a good field and at your age, you can move into doing whatever you wish...

But it will never happen if you keep listening to that bunch of losers you've associated yourself with now, who do nothing but complain about our society.

Move on from them and live your life.

There is NO reason you can't be successful with a BA in a good field in western society today....

NONE...

8:27 PM  
Blogger KellyMac said...

Dude, you are severely depressed. I'm worried about you. Message me, or email me. kellyflippermac1@yahoo.com
I've coped with depression my whole life. Let me try to help you.

7:44 PM  
Blogger Rich Bansha said...

LF,
Your mind may have developed but not your discrimination. The cool thing is that you can have a bad attitude about life and still be happy about it. Think of one of your precursors, Nero. His life was joyous and full of purpose, yet he had little regard for anything or anyone else. What an artist! His biggest fault was that he lacked the shrewedness necessary to be a great despot like Stalin. Don't make his mistake and you will do fine.

12:56 AM  
Blogger NYMOM said...

Yes Rich...what an uplifting post.

Telling him to look up to Nero, a complete despot who winded up eventually being murdered by his own soldiers as they even got fed up with his inane cruelties. AND if you were so cruel that a Roman soldier got fed up with you, you were pretty much a monster.

I mean the guy was accused of burning down about a quarter of Rome in order to clear out a district so he could expand a personal estate of his...

YET this is someone you tell a depressed person to look up to...

Do the world a favor...don't take any jobs in the counseling profession.

5:09 AM  
Blogger Rich Bansha said...

Ahhh. I had been wondering when I would finally cross paths with you nymom. You are notorious and I wanted to see it for myself. You did not disappoint.

I do not have it in my heart to rebuke you. Besides, everyone does that and there is no sport in it anymore. All I will say is that you are wasting your time if you think our Lord F is going to listen to you. You clearly do not understand him. You just showed him that your grasp of history is weaker than his. That alone is enough for him to reject any message you may have for him. This man, young as he is, is a man of thought and contemplation. I am sure you will have better luck in the soc.men newsgroup.

9:05 AM  
Blogger Fidelbogen said...

This widespread worldly lust to "make something of yourself" not only drives people to accomplish large things, it drives entire civilizations like a diesel engine
deprived of a governor. Vrrrroooooooooom-bang-crash-explode!

Our purpose on this earth is not to be overachievers. That is a vain and sick road with no end, a race with no
finish line that only gets faster and faster until it collapses into a general noisy pandemonium.

Don't feel bad because you don't "amount to" anything.
As evidenced from what you have written, you already
posess the philosophical key to unlock the door of that
dilemma. Use that key.

Wisdom is an inside job. As the sign in the shop window
would say: "Enquire within."

10:14 PM  
Blogger NYMOM said...

I understand he is a man of thought and contemplation which is why I posted on his blog.

After all everyone of you on SYG practically has a blog and I don't post on all of them...although you would like to believe otherwise.

3:03 AM  
Blogger NYMOM said...

Actually I was very impressed with him tonight how he picked up on that blige about "black men are screwed by society every bit (and more) then white men"...which is total crap.

In fact, they are the ONLY group that people bend over backwards for today, even more then feminists...

Actually feminists bend over for them...

So this is total nonsense that was sprouted off by that Typhon blue person on SYG who is herself an Islamic extremist who hates Christians. In her early days she used to frequently rail against white women calling them "Christian sluts" but Dr. E must of shut her down, as I notice she watches her language more now...

Remember, we have no way of knowing who or what anyone's real beliefs are on the internet...as people can build a totally different persona for themselves and if they are careful enough no one can break into it to see the truth...

For all we know she could be bin Ladin...far fetched you say...

Well nothing would surprise me today.

Let's remember we are in a war today and a good portion of this war (just like the Cold War) will be played out through propaganda tactics...so we must be prepared for all kinds of stunts especially through the internet as it's what the movies and TV USED to be in jazzing up the population against the enemy...a very effective propaganda tool...

3:17 AM  
Blogger Fidelbogen said...

NYMOM, if this were my blog I would ban you immediately with extreme prejudice.

4:31 AM  
Blogger Rich Bansha said...

Hello again NYMOM.

You seem to have a real problem with the SYG board. Just a little hint to help you and the rest of us along: Not all MRAs are members of SYG.I don't even visit it myself. It is too anti feminist. That's right TOO ANTI FEMINIST.

The MRAs you need to fear are not the anti feminists who are aching to engage you. The real danger to you and to feminists (I do not catagorize you as a feminist because you are not 100% dogmatic) are the MRAs who will let feminism run its course.

MRAs like myself don't care if the feminists build the New Jerusalem. We are only concerned with the welfare of men. To us, feminism as an ideology, means nothing. Feminism as it manifests itself in law and society is a mere nusiannce to be by-passed, not unlike freeway traffic at rush hour.

Those who fight feminism keep it alive by being the enemy it needs to survive. We who do not care about feminism, invest ourseves in other ways and deny political and financial resources to everyone else. If feminism can survive male separatism, then it deserves to survive. So be it. If not, then it was a bum idea and needs to go the way of Wallace's American Independant Party.

3:41 PM  
Blogger Fidelbogen said...

Rich Bansha, I agree with about 90% of what you say.

But I have a smile with the other 10%.

There are ways to "fight" feminism which are not so much like fighting in the traditional sense. Rather, more like inconveniencing it; draining its energy; putting potholes in its road. Okay, passive resistance if you want to call it that....

However, I do agree that the main emphasis should be on building solidarity among males as a class. Yes, this alone COULD do the trick.

"Fighting" feminism can be a fun picnic for a Sunday afternoon. Know what I mean?

By the way, I am not "aching to engage" NYMOM. Not a bit. I have quite enough aches and pains already, thank you! ;)

5:05 PM  
Blogger NYMOM said...

Well Fidel, it's NOT your blog.

AND I have the right to say these things whether or NOT you like it...

This woman has shown herself by both past and present comments to hate white women. She has made many comments in the past calling her own female classmates: Christian sluts and other derogatory names of a similar nature.

She has additionally attacked both Christianity and the West constantly, even through she lives within a Christian western nation and utilizes all the benefits provided by such, which she wouldn't have benefit of if still living in Saudi Arabia...

The bottom line is that when you living in someone's else home, you don't have the right to be constantly attacking the people who have welcomed you into such...

I certainly wouldn't be attacking Islam if I lived in Saudi Arabia...

6:17 PM  
Blogger NYMOM said...

I understand that not all MRAs are members of SYG...just like all feminists are NOT members of NOW...

YET both of these groups are easy identifiable 'types' when mentioning either MRAs or feminism...

The other thing with this typhon blue is something else however. This woman is a real hate monger. If you ever read most of the more hateful posts on SYG you will see that she is the source or instigator of most of them...

Even this most recent one about mothers who nurse their children being equivalent to pedophiles who molest children is at her instigation.

Clearly the woman is mentally ill to say something like this...Yet she wasn't banned for hate speech, even though others have been banned for far less.

6:31 PM  
Blogger NYMOM said...

I hate to tell you but this solidarity of males as a 'class' is total bs. It's similar to the sort of nutty thinking that feminists usually employ...ie., all women will support their programs against all men.

It's never happened anywhere...most women support their own men rather then some nutty feminists...

6:37 PM  
Blogger Rich Bansha said...

Fancy that. I agree with nymom on something.

Men are not a class. Men are a biological of subset of each species in the animal phyla. To call them a class is a mistake. It is not only untrue, it also introduces Marxist terminology into the discussion. (I will go out on a limb and assume that like most MRAs you are anti Marxist as well as anti feminist.) I doubt that this is what you intended.

It would also be a mistake to actively seek solidarity. It can't happen. The spectrum is too broad. We humans are tribal by our evolutionary nature. It would be natural for us to cluster into various small bands. These small bands will eventually gravitate toward each other based on common cause. They will not merge, merely cooperate for a time. This would be natural. Any other attempt to unify men would be handicapped by the fact that it defies nature. It would also have to be engineered and constructed. In such a case, unanticipated problems could very easily derail the whole effort.

7:22 PM  
Blogger Fidelbogen said...

All right, maybe "class" was not the most apposite choice of terminologies. But to cultivate an agenda of male separatism sounds, pardon me, like classifying males as.....a class. Or would "group" be a better word?

And if one does not "actively" seek solidarity....then is "passively seeking" a better way to go? Or is solidarity simply not the goal in the first place? I don't see how it
couldn't be, to be honest. Even if it were not a goal, it would need to be an outcome in some way or another.

Okay, so the small bands would gravitate toward each other based on common cause. BUT.... those "small bands" would each separately need a "micro" common cause in order to become a "band" in the first place, prior to any later "macro" stage of gravitation, yes?

Would (or could) these initial "micro" causes have any basis other than male separatism?

If we propose to get the word out initially, how could it not involve a certain degree of "preaching" (for want of a better term) against feminism?

NYMOM: You're right, it's not my blog -- as I made clear to begin with. Do you not know a hypothetical construction when you see one?

As for Typhonblue, gotta give credit where it's due, she did yeoman's service making Amp and Hugo tuck tail. Hooo boy!

As regards other stuff: If she ever gets her fingers on my wallet, either literally or metaphorically, then I will (literally or metaphorically) whack her on the knuckles with a steel ruler.

But so far she has done no such thing, either literally or metaphorically.

11:19 PM  
Blogger NYMOM said...

Well of course, I'm anti communist if that's what you mean by anti-marxist. After all I am a child of the 50s, I grew up during the height of the Cold War. Had many of my relatives, grandfather, uncles, brothers enlisted in the armed forces and thank God every day that I actually lived to see the collapse of the Soviet Union w/o us having to nuke them into oblivion or vice versa.

Thus I recognize MANY of the symtoms of the same disease...and this MRA stuff now is part and parcel of the same type of nonsense: nothing but a group of malcontents, hating our society, working to subvert us from within, doing everything possible to destroy western civilization as we know it...

So it doesn't surprise me in the slightly that they would be working hand in glove with Islamic extremists who have integrated themselves into western society through the internet. It might surprise you people here, however, since I'm older then most of you (53) and lived through this once already, but with communists trying to subvert us at every turn.

They didn't have the internet at that time, but they had many other tools and used them all very effectively...including the news media (for some reason every nutty movement always gets western media first, I have a feeling if we ever had an invasion from space, these jackoffs would be supporting the aliens too), they had TV (pretty much replaced by the internet today), Hollywood with the movies, college campuses with many professors supporting all these collectivist nitwits, etc....

So none of this is new to me, it's all old news.

Of course, gender neutralized feminists do the same sort of thing.

Which is why I say these two groups are the differing sides of the same coin...

It's like how communists gave themselves all different labels, one was a stalinist, the other was a marxist, then you had liberation theology or some other such crap...it all came down to the same theme after the smoke cleared...collaborating with the enemies of western civilization in an attempt to destroy it...very simple...

This is the same thing.

Sorry to have to be the one to inform you people.

11:21 PM  
Blogger NYMOM said...

"...if she ever gets her fingers on my wallet..."

You poor misguided dupe...

She doesn't NEED to get her fingers on your wallet as she already has gotten them into your MIND...so you'll gladly hand over the money when the times comes that she and/or her friends will ask for it...

AND I've already seen the begging going on over there with people always looking for a donation for some nutty cause or other...

It's the same crap on the feminist blogs btw...

Always links where you can go to donate to some cause or person in need...the only criteria being defiance of the system, then whatever they do is okay...

11:30 PM  
Blogger Fidelbogen said...

How's that, now? I'm a DUPE.....?

And Typhoon has got her fingers into my MIND??

Really? Are you SURE?

Hey, pass the potato chips...!

12:36 AM  
Blogger Rich Bansha said...

Yes indeed FB, the small bands would have some internal common cause. YMCA, NFL Players Association, Green Day and American Synod of Bishops are all men's organizations together for a common cause. More will follow as time goes by. We can expect these groups to cooperate but not meld into a National Men's Party or anything of that nature.

Male separatists will always be a tiny minority, but I am confident that they will have disproportionate influence. This miniscule fraction, itself, is composed of countless different bands. Expats in Thailand, Survivalists in the Rockies even noon time patrons of the Stagg Tobacco Store cigar bars.

I did not mean to give the impression that MRAs should not recruit. It is very important, but most effective within an established band. Recruiting is much easier at your pool hall or Civil War re enactment club than the subway station or street corner.

1:56 AM  
Blogger NYMOM said...

Sure...like those groups are going to cooperate with a group of bomb-throwers out to destroy everything other men have worked to build.

As usual you men are dreaming.

Other men will be your biggest enemies as they won't like to see people like you who don't care about anything messing up what they built...

Expats in Thailand, survivalists in the Rockies and cigar smokers are just the sorts of outliers that no one pays much attention to...they are the male equivalent of gender neutral feminists, who are generally ignored until the law forces you to confront their nutty ideas.

4:32 AM  
Blogger Fidelbogen said...

So... this would tap into pre-existing structures rather that building up de novo. Fine, that is a time-tested m.o., crafted by Freemasonic/Illuminati types of olden days. ;-)

One objection here is that you would tend to exclude a lot of people who don't fit in with such groups in the first place -- I mean the ones who aren't by nature "joiners". Lots of worthy material there!

Anyway, I guess it would be a question of "evangelizing" against feminism in a number of ways, so that men AS men become keenly aware of this common enemy they've got.

Floating the male-separatist meme...

Once a critical mass of awareness crystallizes, various men in various already-established groups would start talking along counterfeminist lines within those groups. And things would grow from there, with that wealth of already-established networks paving the way.

I myself admit a certain partiality to the MGTOW/Leaderless Resistance model..

Writing about all this reminds me once again of how the feminists have been so very keen upon the destruction of male (only) space. This keenness serves a serious plan, as one quickly discerns.

11:40 PM  
Blogger Fidelbogen said...

"As usual you men are dreaming."
----------
Yes NYMOM!! Exactly! You are bang on the money with that statement!

YES nymon!! That's what I want to hear! Dreaming! We're just dreaming! Yup, yup, yup by golly!

11:46 PM  
Blogger NYMOM said...

Freemasons and others like them were just the opposite of your group.

They were traditionalists, conforming to all the norms of the day, supportive of their societies...

They didn't want to destroy the societies they lived in, they just wanted a piece of the action...Common sense would tell you that as most of the people historically associated with them were traditionalists. Prince Charles' father was a freemason, who left after he married Elizabeth II since they didn't think the public would like not just his foreign roots but his belonging to any 'traditional' groups.

The royals in Europe and England now ALWAYS paint themselves as socially liberal these days. Even the House of Lords will generally vote on issues with a more liberal outcome then the House of Commons.

5:11 PM  
Blogger Fidelbogen said...

This comment has been removed by a blog administrator.

12:07 AM  
Blogger Fidelbogen said...

Well, it's good to hear that Adam Weishaupt and all his homeboys were supportive of their societies and norms, and didn't want to destroy stuff. At least now we know that they weren't feminists, huh....? Whew, that's a relief!

12:34 AM  

Post a Comment

Links to this post:

Create a Link

<< Home